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I've been a Bah, Humbug guy for years. But not this year. This year I've made a conscious decision to enjoy the holidays. I even put up a Christmas tree this year for the first time in a LONG time and I watched the movie Elf last night. So this year, you guys will have to grumble without me
May I add a "Harumph!"? LOL
I've actually been seriously considering not even bothering putting up a tree this year.
Not a good time financially and not in the mood.
Kids are going to be disappointed and I'm not charging stuff and going further in debt.
That said, isn't life grand?
I've got a bit of Hum bug in me this year. Ask anyone who knows me, I'm HUGE fan of Xmas. It's my favorite time of the year. I love everything about it. I LOVE watching my boys' faces on Xmas morning. I love trying to find the stuff they want. I love egg nog, I love family, I love the decorating... EVERYTHING.
This Xmas... no money for gifts for my boys. I have NEVER had this happen to me. I bought my house last year and it's been very difficult getting back on track with bills and so on. My car needed a ton of work, my mortage went up. I haven't spoken to my Mom in months. My family are all far away. The list goes on and on.
The real bummer is I feel like I've let my boys down.
I ALWAYS spoil them. I can't even afford one BAtman figure. I wanted to buy them their own house witrh their own yard and what I got was 3 acres of yard and huge bills. I wanted this for them and I feel like I should've stayed in a rental. It's killing me. I feel like the worst father on the planet.
I just have no interest in watching my favorite Xmas specials or even decorating the tree.
Y'know, I think I have a good reason to humbug this year, but y'know, I don't wanna. True this will be my first Christmas in 18 years w/o my mom, but when I think of Christmases past, I just smile. I have LOTS of good memories both from childhood and adulthood. I have a friend to spend the holiday with, and I get to spend it in NYC again, which I haven't done since I was little. I won't get religious, but my mom was a spiritual woman and she's right where she wants to be and w/ the one she wants to be with. So it's all good!
MERRYCHRISTMAS!!
"Do you believe, you believe in magic?
'Cos I believe, I believe that I do,
Yes, I can see I believe that it's magic
If your mission is magic your love will shine true."
Sorry but I have a lot to be thankful for this year I've was battling high blood pressure that I finally got under control, money is tight, My Dad and I had a huge falling out.....but to see my kids eyes twinkle especially my 3 year old makes this time of year special for me......Kinda reminded me of the year my Grandfather died in September of 75 and my Mom was out of it but Christmas made her feel better and seeing us enjoy the season got her through the loss of her father.
I made it a point to Enjoy this Holiday season and be thankful for what i have......
My mother passed away on December 21st 9 years ago this year. She loved Christmas just like me, and I'll be damned if I'm going to let my own feeling of loss overpower my ability to enjoy Christmas. My Dad and sister feel the same way. We powered through that first Christmas without her, still numb, wrapping presents she'd bought for our extended family and friends. It actually helped us. I remember that when I've got the holiday blahs.
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