I figured I would name the thread to those this post would pertain to, since it is likely that It was not noticed and others may be wondering who I even am lol
Firstly, I am SO SORRY I fell off the planet for almost 2 months. It also happened around the exact same time as MM, and I do not want anyone to think that it had anything to do with the show because we had a great time. I won't go into details cuz it's not a very juicy story and emotions are no fun to talk about. I can be annoyingly outspoken but very private when it comes to my actual life. Usually an event in my life doesn't go on long enough to deter from my various comings and goings. But what I have been going through has affected more than just my presence on this forum. I appreciate those who have reached out to me, it is nice to know that I am noticed
I got a phone call during MM asking if I would volunteer for a church assignment and that I was actually recommended to them. I was really excited despite knowing how time consuming it would be. I eagerly accepted and couldn't wait to get started. A few days after getting home, the person who oversees the program came over with a mountain of things to study. I was stoked and pitched her a lot of my ideas. I could see the blood drain from her face as her smile faded. She politely told me that we weren't going to be doing things like that in a way that made me feel 2 inches tall ( Why are so many women good at that?! I suck at it lol). As silly as it sounds, I cried the rest of the evening while Seth tried to console me and tell me that I could still approach things "my way" so that I could set out what I had hoped to do.
So the past 2 months has been my internal emotional struggle trying to figure out what to do. I began to wonder if I was having a mid-life crisis. My frustration seeped into everything else in my life, to the point where I stopped working on commissions completely, despite how many are on my desk. I didn't even want to be around people. For a chick who likes to think she is pretty tough, I was broken. A bunch of additional stress & pressure from our business just made me worse.
Seth even took me to see my neurologist, which I thought was stupid. Turns out that I had a vitamin deficiency that was contributing to my "extreme" behavior. Which I also thought was stupid. But I took the vitamins anyways and I am starting to feel better! So that I can at least cope with my issues and work towards resolutions instead of wallowing in my mire.
I don't feel 100% yet, but I am getting there.
I want to get back to being active on the forums because I really enjoy it. I hope to see you online soon and that I'll be back to my quirky energetic self!
Thank you for caring enough to take the time to read this,
Diana
Firstly, I am SO SORRY I fell off the planet for almost 2 months. It also happened around the exact same time as MM, and I do not want anyone to think that it had anything to do with the show because we had a great time. I won't go into details cuz it's not a very juicy story and emotions are no fun to talk about. I can be annoyingly outspoken but very private when it comes to my actual life. Usually an event in my life doesn't go on long enough to deter from my various comings and goings. But what I have been going through has affected more than just my presence on this forum. I appreciate those who have reached out to me, it is nice to know that I am noticed
I got a phone call during MM asking if I would volunteer for a church assignment and that I was actually recommended to them. I was really excited despite knowing how time consuming it would be. I eagerly accepted and couldn't wait to get started. A few days after getting home, the person who oversees the program came over with a mountain of things to study. I was stoked and pitched her a lot of my ideas. I could see the blood drain from her face as her smile faded. She politely told me that we weren't going to be doing things like that in a way that made me feel 2 inches tall ( Why are so many women good at that?! I suck at it lol). As silly as it sounds, I cried the rest of the evening while Seth tried to console me and tell me that I could still approach things "my way" so that I could set out what I had hoped to do.
So the past 2 months has been my internal emotional struggle trying to figure out what to do. I began to wonder if I was having a mid-life crisis. My frustration seeped into everything else in my life, to the point where I stopped working on commissions completely, despite how many are on my desk. I didn't even want to be around people. For a chick who likes to think she is pretty tough, I was broken. A bunch of additional stress & pressure from our business just made me worse.
Seth even took me to see my neurologist, which I thought was stupid. Turns out that I had a vitamin deficiency that was contributing to my "extreme" behavior. Which I also thought was stupid. But I took the vitamins anyways and I am starting to feel better! So that I can at least cope with my issues and work towards resolutions instead of wallowing in my mire.
I don't feel 100% yet, but I am getting there.
I want to get back to being active on the forums because I really enjoy it. I hope to see you online soon and that I'll be back to my quirky energetic self!
Thank you for caring enough to take the time to read this,
Diana
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